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21 December 2009 @ 11:47 pm
Fuck it.
Seriously, fuck it this year.
All I feel can do for the season this year is be there. The 25th December is not a good day anymore, but I am going to try and be there for the people around me.
It will have been a year since Rentrer en Soi's last ever live, and 6 months since the death...
The year has gone by so quickly and I can't wait for the next ten days to get over and done with.
I don't know what I am expecting from 2010 but let's face it, how can it get worse?
I wish I could just leave England, leave everything I have here and piss off somewhere else.
Possibly why I am determined to have my day trip to Paris when Student Loan comes in. It might only be for a day but it's a day out of the country.

The snow is still falling.
Lightly but it's still coming.
I like to think it's him right now, reminding us of the beauty that this world can give.
Current Location: In my head
Current Mood: numbnumb
Current Music: Ghosts - Michael Jackson
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withoutuiwitherwithoutuiwither on December 22nd, 2009 12:09 am (UTC)
And the snow is him sending it back! Oh snow... you are so beautiful but at the same time so very sad...


Yes, let us hate Christmas together, sitting and complaining about it all!
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withoutuiwitherwithoutuiwither on December 22nd, 2009 12:19 am (UTC)
My mum had just been complaining constantly about it, and I can't understand how anybody can do that. It makes everything look so clean and perfect!

I love that moment, when you run out in big boots and just ruin the virgin snow!

It seem's this a year to either love it or hate it. I have tried to get into the christmas spirit but it is always very short lived.
♪♫『MELODY 』♫♪underthesin on December 22nd, 2009 12:14 am (UTC)
I'm more than sure it's just that.

I miss him.
withoutuiwitherwithoutuiwither on December 22nd, 2009 12:20 am (UTC)
If we do have a white christmas, it cannot simply be a coincidence.

I miss him too.
rave_andourave_andou on December 22nd, 2009 11:41 pm (UTC)
I only hate the snow because it all but stopped me leaving the country >>

ANd honey Ne you should come on holiday with me next summer we should save and rent out a Gite for a few days down our usual way^^ it would be nice